field hockey.

alright well today was the first day of field hockey...or at least i thought it was. It turns out, it wasn't that first day of field hockey. So i woke up this morning(at like 7 btw) and got ready and my dad drove me over to the high school on his way to work, only to find out that there was no one there...greattt....so my dad was like I can either leave you here and call mom to pick you up when you get to work or I can drop you off at Charlton Heights...so I'm thinking uhmm you are definately not leaveing me here (it was like 8 in the morning and freezing out). So he dropped me off at the Elementary school and I walked home because he was late for work. It actually wasn't that bad, considering I got to go home and sleep another 4 hours. But then I was woken up by Mrs. Richardson, calling to ask me if I can babysit tonight...haha a tad bit akward. So anyways, I thought you would like to get a laugh at how my morning has been so far...talk to you laterr<3

first day of work.

alright so today was my first day of work....i recently got a job at oliver's cafe, as a dishwasher...yes i know you are all jealous, anyways. it really isn't as bad as you would think although it has its moments, plus it pays good and i need the money...so back to my first day at work...it was already kinda a long day...because I'm kinda slow....like compared to the other people that work there at least (bc honestly i dont think im thatttt slow haha) Buttt my parents like didn't pick me up...i know your like wow that sucks...well it does...because i had to wait there with my "boss" for like an hour and a half....an hour an a half!!....and yes i tried calling.no answer....so yeah it didn't go so well...i was wicked mad at my parents, but then when i got home and talked to them i wasn't so much because they felt really bad...its not that they forgot about picking me up ..i mean they kinda did, they went to look at our new house (because we are moving), and it ended up taking longer than they expected...but other than that my first day wasn't that bad, besides the face that my hands got sooo amazingly wrinkly, it was good. (oh and btw my boss, claudia ended up bringing me home, but it was fine because she was totally okay with it). So later on in the day i went over to kayla's house to hang out for a bit and we watched the olympics! haha welllll some of the olympics, but i have my first day of field hockey early tomorrow so I'm thinking I'm going to shower then sleep =]

Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard
There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

toodles<3

how am i supposed to feel when your not here

alright so yesterday i went to the Great Escape, with my friend emily and her mom. It rained a little bit...but only for like twenty minutes..so it was nothing. I have to tell you that the highlight of our trip at the Great Escape was the skycoaster, Emily and i went on it together for the first time and it was amazing. I'm not quite sure if I want to say it wasn't scary...because it was but it definately wasn't as bad as i thought it would be...plus i talked through some of the part getting pulled up ....haha so that may have made me not realize exactly how scary it was. But it really was fun, such an experience and after the first drop, it just feels like your flying, but in my opinion the first drop was the best part...because it literally felt like you were falling...until the cord/rope thing "caught" you. We went on other rides..and the water park which, of course, was fun too. After our day at the Great Escape, emily and I went back to her house and got changed and stuff, then headed out to the movies. We saw the Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants 2...it was sooo good. Times a bit sad..but it was definately as good (maybe better) than the first one. Oh yeah, I almost forgot to tell you that my parents just informed me today that we are moving. Its still in the same school district, and in Burnt Hills, but idk, I guess I am just trying to think positive about it....considering how I'm not exactly thrilled that we are moving in the first place...but its a bigger house and although its change we will have more room and I'm sure it won't be as bad as I think. Well I guess I'm going to head over to the Y with kayla to workout for a little while.... here are some lyrics to a song ive been listening to alot lately

That's What you get by paramore

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

toodles<3

come here buttercup

alright, so once again i am at my cousins house, i seem to be here alot lately...i don't mind its just right now i dont have anything to do because my cousins Gina isn't here...again haha. anyways i have been thinking alot lately about like memories and how important they are to me....like remembering them and looking at pictures and "recalling" them. I mean when you think about it memories should be pretty much one of the most important things to us....our present is enjoyable, but it quickly becomes our past...which therefor turns into a memory. I always ask my boyfriend, josh, to tell me stuff about us..haha it sounds really funny especially because we have been going out for about 7 months and thats not really a long time to know someone, and have alot of memories to share, buttt i absolutely loveee hearing him tell me them. Sometimes i don't remember stuff that he does remember, but most of the stuff i remember at least alittle, i just love hearing them from his point of view, because it may be different then what I remember or thought or experienced it to be like, and i like hearing him tell me little details that i don't remember, or that he remembered for some reason, haha i ask him to tell me about "us" alot, just because i like hearing him talk about it. And knowing that i like that so much just made me realize i like hearing about it because i like thinking about it and its important to me. I find myself reading notes from schools that my friends and i have given to each other and remembering what they were about and what was going on in our lives. idk whether you agree or disagree or if you can relate or not, but thats just what im thinking about these days. here are some lyrics from a song i like....what do you think?

words get in the way by jewel

Come here buttercup
Let me fill you up
Can't you see i'm the blue in your skies
You can tell by the stars in my eyes
Dawn always comes too soon
It hurts me like a bruise
There's a hole in my pillow
Where you used to be
It feels like a hole in the middle of me

Oh, oh, oh just take my hand
To have and hold if not obey
Oh, oh, oh say you're still my man
I'll try to find the words to say
That i want you always to stay
To wake up with you every single day
But words get in the way
Words get in the way

Tell your boss you're dead
And let's go back to bed
You make me want to break out in song
But everytime i try it just comes out wrong

i dont really know why i like this song, because i can't really relate to it but i do like it
toodles<3

whenever i think about you

alright so right now im at my cousins, the DiJohns house, and everyone is in the pool....its too cold for me and i kinda just dont want to go in haha. so today josh and i have been going out for 7 months =]...and you willl probably all think I'm weird for saying this but honestly it feels longer than 7 months...idk why it just does. i am so happy that these past 7 months have` happened though. I've been busy lately...i suppose thats why i haven't blogged in a while...but here are some things i have been up to: well on thursday i think it was i had a sleepover with emily, we wanted to go to the mall, butttt that didn't end up working out so well =/ so instead we rented a movie...The other Boleyn girl...have any of you seen it? idk it was pretty good...intense at some parts =P anyways so then on friday i babysat my little sister Kathleen all day with my sister monica while my mom was at work; so on friday i got a call to babysit for these people i don't know...they just moved here from Kansas city, and are supposed to be moving into their new house this Friday, anyways so me not realizing that they don't actually have a house yet i didn't think that they would need me to babysit their kids at my house haha so it was a little akward when they got here but it turned out fine. They had a daughter, Quin, whos two and a son, Henry whos about 9 months, they are cute kids haha and hopefully they will call me again to babysit =]. On saturday i woke up at 7 to babysit emily and kate at 7:30, 7:30 to 4 is a long day, especiallly to babysit them, but they are great to babysit for and we have fun haha....then after babysitting the girls i got dropped off at my cousins for my gramps 80th birthday party; i got to see alot of relatives....like the ones that i only see about once a year in the summer...it was fun tho. As much as i love being with friends being with family is funn too (just not too much haha). I am so excited tho tomorrow kayla come home and i can't wait to here all about her time while in Costa Rica....she gets home late monday night but i still can't wait to talk to her. hm so i was thinking recently about like things and how much they are really worth to me in my life, like a "does that really matter" type of thing....like little things and sometimes big things. My friend kellie said to me one time.....is that going to matter 5 years from now...and she made a point alot of things won't, and i think i should think about that more than i do....and I am trying to think more about even those things that will matter in 5 years. As many of you know about me though...is that i don't like suprises that much...idk why but im not the biggest fan.....and i consider five years from now and not knowing what its going to be like a suprise. i wish i knew what is going to matter in five years....like the things that i should worry more about now for the future...does that make sense? idk anyways i guess thats all for now...here are some lyrics =]. 

Why Can't I? by Liz Phair

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

What if this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

with love<3

I'd like to check you for ticks....in the rain of course

alright...has anyone ever heard of brad paisley? because last night i went to one of his amazing concerts.in the pouring rain. The concert was at SPAC and we had lawn seats..haha (enough said). I went with my mom, dad, my sister monica and kayla too. My mom wore a yellow poncho and my dad wore a blue one.....wicked embarassing...kayla and i decided a little water wouldn't hurt us haha. Although we got really wet, kayla and i weren't like soaked (beside our feet), bc we stood under this big thing (which acted as a roof) the whole concert. It was such a good concert, julianne (i dont remember her last name) was there, jewel, chuck wicks (major hotttiee!!!) and brad paisley. they are all country singers for those of you who dont know who they are=]. and it was really good. You know how SPAC is like on a "hill"...well there were tons and tons of people who were outside (yes in the rain outside....part of this crowd being my parents and monica standing under umbrellas) anyways, there was a big group of "older teenagers" (for lack of a better word) and they made a huge mud slide. like seriously they slide down the lawn in the mud and it was soo funny looking, security tried to stop them once, but supposedly they kept going down...security wasn't very successful. So as a whole this week has been an extremely good week, hanging out with josh and kayla, then emilys party which was really fun, and then going to camp but not having to stay over =] haha. alright well it would only be appropriate to leave you with some brad paisley lyrics...(which will hopefully explain the title for this post to you ;]).

Ticks by brad paisley

Every time you take a sip
In this smoky atmosphere
You press that bottle to your lips
And I wish I was your beer
In the small there of your back
Your jeans are playing peekaboo
I'd like to see the other half of your butterfly tattoo.

Hey that gives me an idea
Let's get out of this bar
Drive out into the country
And find a place to park.

'Cause I'd like to see you out in the moonlight
I'd like to kiss you way back in the sticks
I'd like to walk you through a field of wildflowers
And I'd like to check you for ticks.

I know the perfect little path
Out in these woods I used to hunt
Don't worry babe I've got your back
And I've also got your front
I'd hate to waste a night like this

I'll keep you safe you wait and see
The only thing allowed to crawl all over you when we get there is me.

You know every guy in here tonight
Would like to take you home
But I've got way more class than them
Babe that ain't what I want.

its a funny song you should listen to it...alot of his songs are funny.
toodles<3

forever will be you and me

alright well right now I'm at my cousins and my cousin gina, who i usually hang out with went to her friends camp sooo thats why I'm on the computer =P haha. I have to tell you about my night/morning/day so far...even tho i've probably already told many of you. I was on the phone with my amazing boyfriend last night until like 5 this morning....i know rightt. but anyways so then when we hung up bc we were both getting tired (naturally haha), i couldn't go to sleep....like i was tired but not really. So i got up and went outside...i took a short walk and then got a blanket and read outside for like 2 hours, during which my crazy neighbor who happened to be up for work came over to give us more unneeded crap...which she always does by the way (its like oh im cleaning out my house let me give it to the Fazios)....i mean i know its the thought that counts but its like just no, well this morning she dropped off a basket of toys for my sisters and a half of a watermelon...random?i think so. shes like you can eat the whole thing and not tell anyone or you can share...ill let you decide and i just faked a smile. Back to the rest of my day. At about seven when i finished my book, the truth about forever, (mad good btw), i went inside, layed in my bed and slowly fell asleep. I woke up at like 12:30 to find out that i had a half an hour to get ready and my mom was in the shower..psh greatt i know. So now im at my cousins with my dads side of the family and I've been eating, playing volleyball, swimming, reading and stuff like that, its fun even tho it would be better if gina was here. I am so excited for this week, and if everything goes as planned its going to be soo much fun, ill be sure to tell you about it after =]. so anyways now you are caught up on whats going on with me here are some lyrics to a song i am like addicted to (once again haha).

Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings

Check yes Juliet
Are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won't go until you come outside
Check yes Juliet
Kill the limbo
I'll keep tossing rocks at your window
There's no turning back for us tonight

Lace up your shoes
A O A O ah
Here's how we do

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me

Check yes Juliet
I'll be waiting
Wishing, wanting
Yours for the taking
Just sneak out
And don't tell a soul goodbye
Check yes Juliet
Here's the countdown
3... 2... 1... now fall in my arms now
They can change the locks
Don't let them change your mind


later<3
p.s. Happy 4th of July!