insipid

I don't really have any 'inspriational life advice' for you these days, so i suppose i will just inform you of my bliss-less life. You'd think it would be filled with fun and excitement during this christmas season, and its not that my life is bad right now, my lifes not even boring, its just that though. Its christmas!!!..and it doesn't feel like it. It just feels normal. I think maybe this year the reason im not anticipating christmas is because i didn't really ask for anything big this year and there are more important things that i am looking forward to then getting presents. For example i am sooo looking forward to turning sixteen and getting my permit!!! I am looking forward to going on my missions trip and i am just looking forward to summer, actually and all the unthinkable adventure that comes with summer. That kinda reminds me of another reason as to why i wouldn't want to live in Florida, like i loveee the warmth but living in the warm, non-snowy climate all the time would just give me nothing to look forward to, seeing as i am looking forward to summer so much. It would be like blahhh all year round. haha. a girl needs a little change =P

Lately im starting to realize how much i dont want to grow up. I want to turn seventeen and then stay seventeen my wholeee life.

(A question to mess with your mind): Do second chances happen twice?

well i think i smell pizza soo until next time; toodless
<3 mary

i <3 hot chocolate

i loveeee hot chocolate. I am drinking it right now and im on the phone with josh too (shhhh dont tell him =] tehe). But i really do like hot chocolate, its sooo warm and when you drink it, it heats up your whole mouth, then you can feel it traveling down your esophagus and then it spreads all throughout your body, and yummmy its warm (go ahead go back some come back and then you can finish reading haha =])

so i just took putty out for a walk and it was really cold, i was listening to my ipod which surprisingly i haven't done in a while, it was SO cold and i was only wearing a sweatshirt and normally i despise the cold with a passion and would definitely not be outside taking my little sister on a walk, butttt today i just decided that i, even though i was freezing, liked it..whether it was being by myself for a little while or my whole body including my brain being numb idk. Randomly i concluded that the dry cold air makes me feel healthy....don't ask, but just breathing it in while i was walking made be feel like healthy haha, know what im talking about? maybe not.

I have exciting news....i can go to france!!! ahhh i am ecstatic...someone dropped out so it created an opening and i am next in line...now its not officially official because i have to get all the paper work back to her but im going to france! im so excited!

I am going to small groups soon and im going to go eat some spaghetti so talk to you later

toodles<3

It's raining diamonds

It's snowing!!

now as many of you know..i don't really like the snow, but to inform you differently i actually love snow its just the playing in it part that I don't like. But today is the first official snow day (i think) this year...I'm saying that because it has been snowing consistantly for like an hour...and all the other times it "snowed" this year it was crappy, little sugar-like droplets that dissolve faster than they land. So i do love this part of the snow watching it fall beautifully outside, as I am sitting inside getting colder by the flake.
Last night i painted my nails ( at kaylas =]) and I really like the color nail polish i picked (kayla's haha well her moms ;]) butt i think i like it so much just because i now that like once it all wears off and i have to take it off..thats the end of it (unless i coincidentally go over to kaylas and paint my nails while I'm there again...but i probably wouldn't even remember which color it is considering her mom has like 50 bajillion of the same colors). The point is I think I (as well as maybe yourself) am like that with alot of things...kinda like the "you want it the more you can't have it type of thing", Like, when your eating skittles you save the best color for last, because obviously thats your favorite and its only smart to savor it, but don't you think the opposite rule should apply..like doesn't it really make more sense to go for what you want the most in life, rather then suffering under crappy situations thinking someday you will have this....or get that..or be in that position rather than this one ( under certain circumstance of course ) idk..it also reminds me about going to college, how many invincible teenagers are making "tons of money" during high school or right after high school so naturally you think "why would i go to college to make money when i already am", i guess i would have to disagree with that wisdom filled thought because everybody knows college is pretty much the way to be sucessful in this world.Its debatable.
I made brownies this afternoon while listening to nothing less than the best music ever (country of course) and now i am off to do homework, clean my room, and do laundry. i know, sounds thrilling.

toodles<3

by the way...i thought that title was creative =]...get it? because snow is like rain just frozen, and its soooo sparkly and pretty that it could pass for a handful of diamonds?

love pedals

i know, i know. this is my profile picture =P but i really like it...and i don't really know why. I think maybe i like it because it is very feminine but (as many of you ladies know) very mysterious of what lies ahead and in my opinion very confident proving. I know its kinda a little revealing haha but still its like you can only imagine who took that picture and what it must have been like, if her stomach really looks like that (i hope not) or if shes sucking it in or if it was edited at all...i think just the fact that i like that picture says alot about me...a lot more that what you just first see when you look at it. It also kinda reminds me of Rose in the Titanic...which makes me realize maybe it doesn't say alot about me after all, but of some qualities that i hope to aquire, of something i admire or maybe even desire..not the jack dying part but the love story part. I guess it makes me think of rose because she is confident and bold, beautiful and strong, independent and at the same time reliant on Jacks love. I mean just this picture itself could be related to the amount of confident it has for a woman such as Rose to get her naked portrait done by such a gorgeous young man =], not only that but to tease him like she did with such an akward request and yet fall completely in love with him without him totally knowing leaving him only hoping for the best... i guess you have to be me to understand that as a complete and sane thought haha
so then, what do you think of the picture?...does a whole story come to mind when you look at it...or is it just another promiscuous photo?

with love<3
mary

beauteous fall.

alright listen up bloggers....here i am writing in my blog!! soo now you'll lay off?mhm thanks =]. Anyways so thanks to your pressure I just wrote the crappiest post of my lifeeee...lucky for you i erased it haha....in which a single moment after i got up and danced non-stopped to- t-shirt - now i know how lazy you are so i even put up a link... you've probably already heard it but listen to it!...so after this song was over..then forever by chris brown came on and I danced to that....yeahhh i haven't started my homework yet tehe..see what i do with my free time.Well back to my boring life...field hockey is officially over...and we didn't win a single game, coach said our last game we played the best we have out of the whole season...coincidental?i think so. I am working this weekend and as you will probably be able to assume...because of the fact that I haven't started my homework yet...that i have a crap load to do this weekend..yay!...well here's something positive...tomorrow's Friday! woohoo-one more day..I can make it haha. I'll write again soon.
toodles<3
P.S. Question of the day (which means you will answer)- Why do leaves change into beautiful colors?

Last day of summer.

alright soo sorry for reminding you but today is the last day of summer...for me at least. Josh's last day of summer was yesterday, and we got to spend it together...which I think is cute because its not like we get to see each other whenever. But to be honest today is a boring day haha. Right now i am currently babysitting my little sister... thats always fun, at 4 i have a game and then after that Kayla and I are going to get a wedding shower present for our friend Danielle, so it mostlikly will get better. Josh came up on Sunday so i got to hang out with him the past few days, which I loved so much. So yesterday, I finally got the movie that my dad ordered online for me, in the mail, A Walk to Remember, i feel like i have been waiting for it forever. So i could watch that today to make my day that much better but it is always more fun to watch it with someone and baby won't appreciate it as much as i would like her to. Alright so i have some lyrics for you, I think everyone can relate to them because we all want to feel needed, and like we are important, and to me this song just says that you don't need to do something amazing to "make a differenece".

Something worth leaving behind by lee ann womack

Hey Monalisa, who was Leonardo?
Was he Andy Warhol?
Were you Marilyn Monroe
Hey Mozart, what kind of name is Amadeus
It's kinda like Elvis
You gotta die to be famous
I may not go down in history
I just want someone to remember me

I'll probably never hold a brush
that paints a masterpiece
Probably never find a pen
that writes a symphony
But if I will love then I will find
That I have touched another life
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind

Hey Midas you say you have the magic touch
But even all that shiny stuff
Someday is gonna turn to dust
Hey Jesus it must have been some Sunday morning
In a blaze of glory
We're still tellin' your story
I may not go down in history
I just want someone to remember me

I'll probably never dream a dream
and watch it turn to gold
I know I'll never lose my life
to save another soul
But, if I will love then I will find
That I have touched another life
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind

Hey baby see the future that we're building
Our love lives on in the lives of our children
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind

hm...what do you think?
toodlesss<3

when words fail

I'm sure you have heard the quote, "the lyrics to her favorite song will say more then she ever will," and if you haven't then now you have. But anyways I really like that quote, I always have and I'm pretty sure I always will. Its just so true, and it really applies to me as I'm sure it applies to everyone else too, or else why would we all be in love with music? Its the reason that I usually put at least some song lyrics at the end of my post whenever I write in my blog. And whether or not you read the lyrics it defines how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking about at the time. Whenever someone has me listen to a song, or whenever I listen to someones ipod, I always wonder what's going through their head as their listening to the song, what makes them like the song so much, how it applies to them or anything in their life. Especially if its a song they like, and they ask me to listen to...I mean theres obviously a reason why they like it.And its so cool how sometimes music or lyrics say something about a person that you may have never known, or never will. So lets see if you can pick out a song that you think applies to me right now.
-I'm feeling stressed...which is sad because school hasn't even started
-mad and a tad annoyed at my parents
-in love with my boyfriend
-And I am feeling like i desperately need some saving tonight...like some fun? or just relaxing and watching a favorite movie, a long phone call, or a bubble bath

I know you all are big music fans so I expect to get some lyrics
with love<3
p.s. copied some of the title from emilay tehe =]