how will I do

I can't wait to get going but I don't think I'm ready to leave. I'm making plans for the future that may never happen, because who know's what I'll be in the future. What if I waste four, five or even six years trying to figure out something I'll never know...but then again what if I already have? I guess we all get mixed up in this crazy life, so I have no one to turn to. Seems like I'm walking in the wrong direction, I can barely recognize myself sometimes. Am I playing on the safeside, or is this just taking a long time? I don't want to live in fear, I don't want to be afraid to just fall down, no matter how many times it happens, hopefully someone will be there to pick me up. I'm not sure who it will be though, do I know them now? Where will I meet them, or will I make yet another mistake and miss meeting them? I will wait up for you, whoever you are. I secretly hope your waiting for me too.