If there was a Grand Canyon...

okay so I went to the prom walk in and I have to say after seeing all that it really makes me want to go to prom haha...anyways this weekend has been kinda blah...not blah as in boring but blah as in like good and bad parts and they have kinda canceled each other out so its been just kinda blah. You know what I think is soo pretty.....a dried out rose or pressed rose pedals...as some of you know thats something that I do with more of my roses or flowers that I have gotten or at least the special ones =)...but anyways they are so pretty because they are like a beautiful memory frozen for you to look back at and remember who gave you the rose, how or why you got it, and just the purpose behind such a simple flower. I really like memories....I wouldn't say I'm the type of person who is always looking back and wishing to relive them...but I am the type of person who likes to capture moments with a picture or who likes to just look back and remember them. One thing that I really want to do in my life.... and when I say life I kinda mean like I'm hoping sooner rather than later...is go to arizona and see the grand canyon...I don't really know why I want to but I just think it would be an amazing experience. So I have recently fallen in love with this song called there is no arizona by Jamie O'Neal......I don't exactly know why I like it....it doesn't apply to me at all or anything like that I just really like it ...so here are some lyrics for you (okay so these lyrics are kinda long ....like not for a song but just for me to put on my blog but I guess this song kinda tells a story...like most country songs haha .....so yeah just read them and suck it up =])

He promised her a new and better life, out in Arizona
Underneath the blue never ending sky, swore that he was gonna
Get things in order, he'd send for her
When he left her behind, it never crossed her mind

There is no Arizona
No Painted Desert, no Sedona
If there was a Grand Canyon
She could fill it up with the lies he's told her
But they don't exist, those dreams he sold her
She'll wake up and find
There is no Arizona

She got a postcard with no return address, postmarked Tombstone
It said "I don't know where I'm goin' next but when I do
I'll let you know"
May, June, July, she wonders why
She's still waiting, she'll keep waiting 'cause

There is no Arizona
No Painted Desert, no Sedona
If there was a Grand Canyon
She could fill it up with the lies he's told her
But they don't exist, those dreams he sold her
She'll wake up and find
There is no Arizona

Each day the sun sets into the west
Her heart sinks lower in her chest and
Friends keep asking when she's going
Finally she tells them don't you know

There is no Arizona
No Painted Desert, no Sedona
If there was a Grand Canyon
She could fill it up with the lies he's told her
But they don't exist, those dreams he sold her
She'll wake up and find
There is no Arizona

He promised her a new and better life, out in Arizona

later<3

the mystery within a cloud

Do you ever want something, but then when you get it, it turns out that it was nothing that you ever really wanted? I absolutely hate when that happens to me. Like crying...do you ever want to just cry, and then you get a reason to cry and you can't stop. I'm mad at my parents right now...and I know what your thinking...what happened this time, but its just them being how they always are trying to screw over my life, being to over protective and irrational. I hate limitations and out of everyone in my life, my parents limit me the most. I love the rain, because no matter what happens while your in the rain, its always better than not being in the rain while its happening. The rain washes things away, it cleanses you, just by letting yourself feel it against your skin. It creates peace in your mind and relaxes you. You are alone, while being surround by everything at the same time, you are drenched with never ending teardrops, but it doesn't matter, nothing really matters at the moment. No matter where you look, the world is covered with such pure water, and you have no control, no control of the rain, no control of yourself and no control of anyone else for that matter. It is completely silent, but you are hearing everything all at the same time. So, I guess I will just leave you with the lyrics from one of my favorite songs

Bring on the Rain by Jo Dee Messina

Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could wrong
Sometimes I'd like to hide away somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war ('cause)
Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain
It's almost like the hard times circle 'round
A couple drops and they all start coming down
Yeah, I might feel defeated,
I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing - but I'm not dead
Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain
I'm not gonna let it get me down
I'm not gonna cry
And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight

love<3

Friday night beneath the stars

Colorful, Really fun, Amazing, Yucky tasting, Only wax, Neat, Sunshine makes me melt....okay you may think i am only the biggest freak ever right now but i love crayons. On a blank, boring page, crayons give you the power to put life into such an empty picture. Just when i start to think that i have way to much homework that i should probably start i see a box of crayons and I'm like psh screw homework I'm going to color=)...that was kinda random but I really would much rather just sit and color listening to music then do my homework. Anyways, today was a good day..i mean there isn't really a reason why it...it just was. I can't wait for this summer...like I was thinking about it today and its going to be soo great. Like even if I'm not going to be busy like everyday...it will be nice to just go outside in the sun and read or take a walk....I can't wait. I think if people have something to say they should just say it...like if someone wants you to know something but for whatever reason they didn't tell you wouldn't you be like "uhm...tell me"....like no matter what it is good or bad you would want to know either way, and the other person wants you to know so its just better for the both of you if you just say what you want instead of holding back. Its like doing what you really want to do...what's the point of not doing something that you want to do....exactly there isn't one and sometimes you know you are going to do it eventually so you might as well just do it now..when you really want to. Well I guess that's all for now so I will just leave you with some lyrics .
I'm only me when I'm with you by taylor swift

Friday night beneath the stars,
in a field behind your yard,
you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky.
And sometimes we don't say a thing;
just listen to the crickets sing.
Everything I need is right here by my side.
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you.
I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

i love this songg
toodles<3

in this moment

I have to be honest and tell you that I haven't really been in the "blog mood" lately....but I have been thinking a lot recently. And I realized I have soo many unanswered questions...I don't know who would have the answers so i guess i just never ask and keep wondering...maybe you have the answers to some or they will at least get you thinking. Why do we paint our driveways....like I know we don't actually paint them...but we do...we paint them black. The road isn't black so why must our driveways be..what is the point in that? Secondly can we (as in people) actually hold a cloud...i mean i know clouds are like fog and stuff but can we like touch one and acknowledge that its a cloud? How many wings does a bubblebee have? How tall will a tree grow if you never were to cut it..and how tall will grass grow if you never cut it? Why does it hurt when you get soap in your eyes? Why don't we appreciate stuff...like everyone says "live in the moment" and you hear that all the time..but as much as we hear it why don't we just actually do it....we take advantage of so much...i know I do at least. Tomorrow we won't remember anyways---those are lyrics from a song...but I don't remember what song they are from exactly, but I think that those lyrics are so true...like i dont know about you but I dont remember like anything from yesterday...but the best part is....it almost always never matters that we don't remember yesterday or certain parts of yesterday. I think that something that I really want to do...is something that seems impossible for me to do...like I just want to do it to prove to myself that I can....and if I can't then I guess i would do it to find out that I can't do it...i feel so boring..i need to entertain myself with myself...(well okay i guess i need better wording for that) like i want to do this just because i really want to...if that makes any sense. I guess this is it for now so here are some lyrics that i really like right now

Thats where it is by Carrie Underwood

In the circles I've been running,
I've covered many miles,
And I could search forever for what's right before my eyes,
Just when I thought I'd found it,
It was nothing like I'd planned,
When I got my heart around it, it slipped right through my hands,
Here with you I feel it,
I close my eyes and see it,
In a midnight talk, in a morning kiss,
When I'm in your arms, that's where it is,
When we're tangled up and can't resist,
When we feel that rush, that's where it is,
That's where it is

with love<3

yay tomorrows friday..

Okay so school wasn't so bad today i have to admit but i did stay after for science..which is always a little depressing because its like ew science...well thats how i think of earth science at least. Shannon came over after school today...and its the first time that she has been to my house and like the first thing she heard when she walked through the door was the baby crying and shes like since when have you had a baby haha....she wasn't talking about me personally though. okay although i don't have a lot of homework due tomorrow...i have sooo much homework for this weekend...and i have good intentions (haha) of getting it all done..so that I'm not all crammed with homework the following week. Science is a little rough these days though..she gives us like 2 labs....to do at home not in school how labs are supposed to be done and then like a bajillion worksheets for review...I'm not that sure how I will do in science this quarter. But even though i have alot of homework i really can't wait for this weekend..because first of all its the weekend...and second i will be hanging out with josh and some other friends. okay so here are some lyrics to a song...i really like this song but i think these lyrics are my favorite part
Where You Are by Jewel
I get so lost inside of you, but
I can not always find my way
To where you are

toodles<3